Fear…

I have been paralyzed by fear lately, the fear of moving forward, and the fear of going ahead with what I plan to do… Sometimes I couldn't start something, and other times I didn't finish what I started…

My drafts folder is full of unfinished posts, and uncompleted sentences…

My mind felt like strangled strings, from every direction, and I was stuck in between… It felt as if that tunnel had no end, and I couldn't seem to see a light, the tunnel of my deepest thoughts, was blocking me in….

I knew... I had to fight my way out of there, for I no longer can take the darkness, and the heaviness I felt inside….

I was wondering where fear came from; I have always been brave and strong…

Until I realized that fear is only something I created, to hide behind, when I felt too tired to keep fighting, and too tired to move on, fear was the cave I ran into, but instead of sheltering me, it took over me…

And isn't that what we all do, when things don't seem to be going as we wish, we get used to giving up, and blaming it on others, blaming it on things, and circumstances. Only if we look clearly and see that we can do anything, at anytime, if we really want to…

So I pick up myself, and I break my way out of the tunnel and I see the light, I start again, knowing that time wont wait for me, and that I must get things done now…

I must write my mind, for once the thought is gone its never back….